Masochism

Some people enjoy things that others simply do not

For whatever reason people have preference of what they want

They like to do things that others simply despise

No matter what it is it's always tough to disguise

To hide the fact from others about their addiction

To their flavor of the week, what they do with conviction

Cuz no matter what, you can't change how these people act

Since they react without reason, simply trying to enact

What they percieve as fact and reality

At the end of the day, they simply feed their need

So when you see me acting in a weird ass way

Don't think to yourself about how much you used to praise

This torn up person that has fallen from existence

Who feeds his addiction without trying to resist it

It's that drug

It's my life

It's the rush

That gets me high

So pass me by

One last time

And don't judge

Since I won't budge

From this stance

Cuz when you glance

You better believe that you'll see

I'll be that fuckin person that I hate

That very same person on that lame ass date

It gets me going

Blood flowing

Heart races

I can't pace this

I feed the greed

I start to see

What I've become

What I'll be

Cuz when I'm buzzing

Thoughts running

I wanna escape it

I can't stand it

So sit back and relax

Cuz Imma try and bring me back

From this hatred, from this low

I can't stand it, I wanna go

Jump deck

Before I wreck

Another person, another soul

So when i roll

Try to envision

A different person

From what I am

Cuz I can't stand this man

What I've become, what I am

It's that drug

It's my life

It's the rush

That gets me high

So pass me by

One last time

And don't judge

Since I won't budge

From this stance

Cuz when you glance

You better believe that you'll see

I'll be that fuckin person that I hate

That very same person on that lame ass date

It's a needle of heroin

Shot straight up from my left hand

A stab of PCP

Straight into my right cheek

It's a line, it's a bowl

It's whatever that'll get me to stroll

Along the timeline of life

Diverting me from a wife

Cuz when I try to be myself

I just get brought back to hell

To the very same place

Of where i first lost that race

I can't even try to pace

You can see it on my face

I enjoy this drug simply way too much

Being a masochist is like doing a lethal drug

an OLD verse, for an old blog

High as fuck and that's all that matters

Cuz when i attack, don't even be flattered

By the curious shit that i speak or say

You don't understand when i speak about the day

The day of the week that just seems to get by

No one really knows just exactly why

Everything happens exactly the way it does

Cuz when people get by, no one really goes

Against just what the norm is, always contending

To the various shit that is constantly pretending

To lead the way of life that we should all follow

Please o Please, don't follow that hollow

Form of lifestyle that just shouldn't exist

People pretend to co-exist

With the very etentites that create this society

The very entities that control us, the proprietary

The very same people that attempt to take us down

Those against us will constantly frown

Upon the very people we have become

Since you are alone, I am merely one.

why?

High as fuck and that's all that matters

Cuz when i attack, don't even be flattered

By the various shit that i speak or say

You don't understand when i speak about the day

The day of the week that just seems to get by

No one really knows just exactly why

Everything happens exactly the way it does

Cuz when people get by, no one really goes

Against just what the norm is, always contending

To the various shit that is constantly pretending

To be the way of life that we should all follow

Please o Please, don't follow that hollow

Form of lifestyle that just shouldn't exist

People pretend to co-exist

With the very etentites that create this society

The very entities that control us or proprietary

The very same people that attempt to take us down

Those against us constantly frown

Upon the very people we have become

Since you are alone, I am merely one.

Too. 4Hore. Won.

Life...it's whatever you want it to be

Being the very thing you try to live free

Freeing you from any hardships and trouble

Troubling to know that you can't always control em

Them being the problems that arise each day

Daily you question how to make your way

Weighing each and every option that you have

Having only a few choices makes you mad

Mad crazy obstacles constantly block your path
Paths that never seem to reveal their wrath

Wrath merely just one of the seven deadly sins

Sins thrown in any of the nearby trash bins

Inner darkness shields the light

Warmth not only physical but mental

Bleakness engulfs the soul

Like a blanket putting out the flames

With melancholy comes a sort of resolve

The edge that you need to overcome

Allowing yourself to be that asshole

The funny thing about life is it's paradoxes

What you think is always wrong

You have to do the opposite

That bitter cold that overwhelms you

Is actually the very thing you needed to get through

5 17 09

The context of a rhyme isn't always what's important

The way it is said is often soft spoken

Lyrical content isn't essentially a must

Unless of course you don't want to be a bust

Knowing what you are talking about is always a nice thing

Giving your word credit, sometimes you need to pass on the bling

Merely pass on all the glitz and glam

That is presented for those selling out on their plan

Their plans of becoming a legit as MC

But instead, they throw it all away for some free

Cash, Ice, and females in their life

Idiots don't realize, they should indulge in their strife

Their struggles and anguish are what make you

Constantly adding to what you can contribute

But people are all the same, never gonna change

Cuz we are creatures of habit, limited by our range

The complexities of the human being are quite miniscule

Often much more common than some road kill

Now I have never been one that is quite decorated

With all the different struggles that are constantly commemerated

I just live each day, going through each struggle

But don't twist my words and think that I juggle

The life of a fiend, constantly caught up in heinous acts

Cuz that just ain't me, I'm simple like that

Bitches

Bitches are always fucking with my life
Causing drama to add to the strife
Convoluted actions are constant distractions
Throwing off perception, even my actions
Reactions being made to try and get through this
Weird ass relationship, always getting me pissed
They are always in my life, it's the way shit goes
It's the ebbs and it's the flows
The highs and the lows
It's those damn fucked up hoes
Constantly dragging me down
Always catching me on the rebound
Never can I find just a simple chill girl
Are there none that exist in this fucked up world

At the end of the day I only have a few things to say
One, get outta my life, just get the fuck away
I don't care where, just don't fuck with me
Two, take all your fuckin shit away from me
I don't want anything to remind me of your promiscuous nature
And how much you dragged me down into this abyss of a chamber
I presently find myself in such a dark place
And you can bet it's cuz of you, I hate this fuckin space
Three, please never speak to me again
Don't hit me up ever, I just want it to end
And lastly give me what's left of my heart back
Even though you ripped it out, tortured it, and cracked
What's left of my dismal psyche
Bitch, get outta my mind so I can break free

Greed

Greed and power are what harm us
Constantly dragging us towards bust
Spontaneously combusting, ending the strife
People's gluttnous desires destroy their life
Incandescent lightbulbs lead to ideas and thoughts
But nothing gets done, it's all for naught
Those who are wealthy rape those with little
Taking their money, lives, it's quite belittling
It's what is wrong with the world; some of the problems
They must be fixed, we have to solve em
Forever doomed, is the current destiny
For those who continue will never be set free

Can you see the sky, turn, green
From all the world's envy and greed
It's filled us all for all eternity
It spreads all the hate, lies, and misery

These people in this world do fucked up shit
By going to a foreign place, and fucking with it
Castrating their people and their customs
Robbing the people of what makes them one
One in a million, before they were messed with
But power and greed leads people toward Sith
Darkness and bleakness are engulfing this planet
These people give in to the oil and granite
There's no end in sight to all this madness
It must end soon before it spreads and
Single handedly leads to the destruction
This shit must change, change to re-construction

Can you see the sky, turn, green
From all the world's envy and greed
It's filled us all for all eternity
It spreads all the hate, lies, and misery