Masochism

Some people enjoy things that others simply do not

For whatever reason people have preference of what they want

They like to do things that others simply despise

No matter what it is it's always tough to disguise

To hide the fact from others about their addiction

To their flavor of the week, what they do with conviction

Cuz no matter what, you can't change how these people act

Since they react without reason, simply trying to enact

What they percieve as fact and reality

At the end of the day, they simply feed their need

So when you see me acting in a weird ass way

Don't think to yourself about how much you used to praise

This torn up person that has fallen from existence

Who feeds his addiction without trying to resist it

It's that drug

It's my life

It's the rush

That gets me high

So pass me by

One last time

And don't judge

Since I won't budge

From this stance

Cuz when you glance

You better believe that you'll see

I'll be that fuckin person that I hate

That very same person on that lame ass date

It gets me going

Blood flowing

Heart races

I can't pace this

I feed the greed

I start to see

What I've become

What I'll be

Cuz when I'm buzzing

Thoughts running

I wanna escape it

I can't stand it

So sit back and relax

Cuz Imma try and bring me back

From this hatred, from this low

I can't stand it, I wanna go

Jump deck

Before I wreck

Another person, another soul

So when i roll

Try to envision

A different person

From what I am

Cuz I can't stand this man

What I've become, what I am

It's that drug

It's my life

It's the rush

That gets me high

So pass me by

One last time

And don't judge

Since I won't budge

From this stance

Cuz when you glance

You better believe that you'll see

I'll be that fuckin person that I hate

That very same person on that lame ass date

It's a needle of heroin

Shot straight up from my left hand

A stab of PCP

Straight into my right cheek

It's a line, it's a bowl

It's whatever that'll get me to stroll

Along the timeline of life

Diverting me from a wife

Cuz when I try to be myself

I just get brought back to hell

To the very same place

Of where i first lost that race

I can't even try to pace

You can see it on my face

I enjoy this drug simply way too much

Being a masochist is like doing a lethal drug

an OLD verse, for an old blog

High as fuck and that's all that matters

Cuz when i attack, don't even be flattered

By the curious shit that i speak or say

You don't understand when i speak about the day

The day of the week that just seems to get by

No one really knows just exactly why

Everything happens exactly the way it does

Cuz when people get by, no one really goes

Against just what the norm is, always contending

To the various shit that is constantly pretending

To lead the way of life that we should all follow

Please o Please, don't follow that hollow

Form of lifestyle that just shouldn't exist

People pretend to co-exist

With the very etentites that create this society

The very entities that control us, the proprietary

The very same people that attempt to take us down

Those against us will constantly frown

Upon the very people we have become

Since you are alone, I am merely one.